today was such a bad day

Got woken up by an angry mom. She was mad at me for not waking up at once, causing us to be late for church. But the fact is i didn't even hear her. bad start to a day really spoils your mood. so i dragged myself to church. And my mom viewed that as me being tired and scolded at me again for always sleeping late. But in fact i was just irritated that she had to spoil my day right from the start.

had lunch with jyf people after church. and had a conversation with the guys. it just brought my mood even lower. i am really not enjoying this. i hate people thinking that i enjoy doing things that i shouldn't. because i really hate it. hate. hate how my everything has gone down to ground zero.

skipped prayer meeting and went home after lunch. tried to do work but ended up procrastinating as usual. hated myself even more. but got better after a 2hrs nap. Asked my friend over my place, thinking that perhaps it would cheer me up. i even put in the effort to look happy and cheerful and whateveriamobviouslynotfeeling. But what i got back was just a cold shoulder. really doesnt help at all.

can you feel the mundaneness of all the mundane activities which causes my mundane sadness. 

And i realised that clarice > soccer (clarice bigger than soccer ) was just a freaking lie.

kthxbai.