trust

why is it so hard to build up friendship and so easy to tear it down. only if all of us could trust each other more.. then things would be much easier. admit that i do not know how to express myself sometimes.. but dont you know me well enough? so utterly disapointed with myself. dissapointed with you too. i dont know how to cope with al these extra stress that seems far too much a load for me.

but! put all the dissapointing stuffs aside. im actually going to be the ling shi for jyf this saturday xD my first time again xDD no one in sch seems happy for me :( but oh well nvm... ill be happy for myself (: hahas. supposed to meet sophia today to discuss stuffs but smth cropped up, so.. awwwww cant see her today, how sad lols. hees speaking of my church... really, people there are just toooo friendly and understanding that its a gift too good to be true.

first month of 2008 seems abit too stressful for me so far. but its me who put it upon myself, for slacking so much in lower sec that now completing hw in time seems like a miracle =X hahas.

jia you for myself then ! xD