The Joys of Motherhood
Allison is 6 months old now, and we have gone through so much as a family. The early months of motherhood were brutal. But by month 4-5, things began to lighten and joy slowly replaced exhaustion. Before Allison, I never understood why people would willingly choose to have children. It looked like endless work with very little return. But now I see it differently, the privilege of having a child to love is beyond anything I could have imagined. Sometimes I even catch myself dreaming of having another baby to love. I have never known love like this before Allison. This overwhelming, all consuming love that takes me by surprise. One night, I crept into her bedroom to slip on mittens and socks on her hands and feet so that she wouldn't be cold. I would never do that for Joel - he can look after himself! But for Allison, these small acts feel sacred. I love her tiny fingers and toes, her silly faces, her baby scent. She is my baby and I love her so much. The things that once felt like ...